Feels Good

Today feels like it going to be a good one. I don't know why but I feel kind of good today. It's a good thing to I have been down for the last few days, but now I feel good. I want to go shopping today, but I doubt it will happen cuz I have no car lol. But, anyway TODAY WILL BE AN AWESOME DAY!

AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

I just want to scream! You every feel like you just want to let loose. Like, scream or punch the shit out of somebody. I just have so much anger in me right now. Most likely, because of the time of the year. I should be in a good mood because it is like 20 days til my 21st birthday. But, something happened about 2 year ago that has ruined it. I am so on edge I hate feeling this way. I keep thinking about it and thinking about it. I still remember the whole thing. Well, God won't put more on you then you can bare, but this is hard. I don't want to talk about it, think about it, or even recognized it happened. AHHHHHHH!!!!!

Just Thoughts

You ever feel like you just do and do all the time and no one appreciates it. I feel that. I feel like I just want to make it work, but maybe its doomed to fail. I don't know. Can I honestly say I want to be with this person for the rest of my life? It's a scared thought especially since I am only 20. I don't want to hurt him, but I don't know if I want to do it anymore. That is such a horrible thing to say. I love him there is no question about it I just want it to be nature no more trying to make it work, or changing things around to make it work I want it to be easy. Just chill and easy.

A Broken Heart

Have you ever felt like your heart was ripped from inside of you? That's how I feel right now. Me and my boyfriend fought tonight. And its not the fight itself that is bothering it the fact that I feel like I do nothing right. He is always having a problem with what I do and how I do things. It hurt that your significant other has a problem with you as a person. I love him so much there is no question about it but how can I be with someone who has a problem with who I Am?

Everything Happens For A Reason. Right?

So, about a week and a half ago I tried out for this Open Mic that this Sorority I want to join is throwing. I sung Chris Borwn's Crawl and I thought I did good. But, I got rejected. They are having another event on Monday and I am not sure if I should go. Because I feel like I embarrassed myself. Maybe I really can't sing and and they think I am crazy for even trying. I hate rejection. I don't know what to do.

LOL!!! This is my last one 2nite. I just have one more rant.

I absolutely can't stand his friends. They are so annoying. They need to grow the fuck up. They are always picking on me and they don't respect our relationship at all. They are always talking about other females around us and ask him to chime in and shit. Then, they try to get us to fight by saying shit like oooo he looking at another girl. They are just jealous cuz they are a lone and have no girlfriend. I wish he had different friends. He can do some much better then tho fucking loser/ rejects. I know I am being harsh, but I have been going through this shit for 16 months now and its annoying. And he is just so loyal to them I don't know why. Probably, because he is the only one that looks good out of them. Three of them are fat, one of them is tall with a huge lip, and the other smells like the inside of a trash can. OMG!!!!! They make me sick. Okay, I am done. Just had to get that off my chest.

Sweet Things

So, after I wrote my first blog I decide to surf the internet for some fun things to do. I found a website that gives you a list of things you can do for your boyfriend. Maybe if I start being sweet and doing things out of the ordinary then maybe he will too. You know like monkey see monkey do. Humm? Maybe this is the answer.