Everything Happens For A Reason. Right?

So, about a week and a half ago I tried out for this Open Mic that this Sorority I want to join is throwing. I sung Chris Borwn's Crawl and I thought I did good. But, I got rejected. They are having another event on Monday and I am not sure if I should go. Because I feel like I embarrassed myself. Maybe I really can't sing and and they think I am crazy for even trying. I hate rejection. I don't know what to do.

LOL!!! This is my last one 2nite. I just have one more rant.

I absolutely can't stand his friends. They are so annoying. They need to grow the fuck up. They are always picking on me and they don't respect our relationship at all. They are always talking about other females around us and ask him to chime in and shit. Then, they try to get us to fight by saying shit like oooo he looking at another girl. They are just jealous cuz they are a lone and have no girlfriend. I wish he had different friends. He can do some much better then tho fucking loser/ rejects. I know I am being harsh, but I have been going through this shit for 16 months now and its annoying. And he is just so loyal to them I don't know why. Probably, because he is the only one that looks good out of them. Three of them are fat, one of them is tall with a huge lip, and the other smells like the inside of a trash can. OMG!!!!! They make me sick. Okay, I am done. Just had to get that off my chest.

Sweet Things

So, after I wrote my first blog I decide to surf the internet for some fun things to do. I found a website that gives you a list of things you can do for your boyfriend. Maybe if I start being sweet and doing things out of the ordinary then maybe he will too. You know like monkey see monkey do. Humm? Maybe this is the answer.

My First Blog

I created this blog so I can rant. So, everything I can't say or won't say to people or about people I can get out. Because I realize that I hold a lot I mean a lot of shit in and now I don't have to. Thank God. Because I feel like I am not me anymore. I want to just go somewhere and start over and change my name do stuff differently. But, its to late and I am honestly unhappy with my life right now. Yes, I have friends and a boyfriend who I love, but now it has all gotten BORING!!! I mean my friends are awesome and so is my boyfriend, but everything is so predictable. I mean my friends all have the same problems. And they all have to do with their boring ass boyfriend who I don't give a fuck about. And my relationship its been a great 16 months, but it is the same shit. Can we spice it up? I mean sexually and in everyday situations. Can we streak or make a sex tape or something. I mean damn we are all in college lets do some crazy shit. I don't know maybe I am asking for to much maybe I should tell them that. I mean there is more to life then volunteering and video games. That is their highlight of the week. My friends volunteering and go to the movies every weekend no parties no drinking really. THEY DO NOTHING. And my boyfriend video games is his highlight. ITS SOOOO GAY!!!! Well, I think I am done for 2day . Thanks for listening.