I Don't Want It To Be Over

I thought this was what I want be it turns out I was wrong

I want us back together happy and strong

These 2 years have been the best of my life

Sitting here waiting to find out cuts like a knife

I can't help but feel this is my fault

That I let me heart but locked up like a vault

I am really going to give it my all if you decide to stay

This is what I want I wish it may

If you feel that this isn't right

I will understand but for our friendship I will fight

As long as you are in my life I will be okay

But I hope and believe that you will stay

I Don't Know What To Do?

Our Anniversary is a week away and I feel farther from him then I every had before. I don't know what to do? Like, right now I am upset and hurt because for the last 2 years our entire relationship has been about him. Whatever he wants from me he gets, if doesn't want to be around me I give in, if he wants sex he gets it. I was even about to go broke for him all for his stupid xbox. I do everything for him. I never tell him no if he wants something he knows that I will say yes without even being convinced. Take this summer he cam back for summer break and told me he wanted a break and space so I agree. Then, the same day he comes back his check didn't come in and he needed 60 dollars to take his driving class. And, you know who gave it to him without him even asking me. And we were on a break, but that's how much I love and care for him. It's my own fault I just let him walk all over me and get what he wants and do what he wants. I guess my ex-friends were right.