I HATE THIS SHIT!

I am two seconds from losing my mind. Nothing is my life is goes right. I have no friends, my boyfriend doesn't like spending time with me, I am failing 3 classes and I am completely broke. As I go through all of this no one knows. I keep it to myself because no one really cares. I am in such pain right now I just want to be done. I just want it to be over. I hate being this depressed. But, I see no upside. Everything I set out to do I fail at. I fail at class, friendships and relationships. Why should I even try. It is going to end bad anyway. I hate being this way but nothing is getting better. It's like it gets better for a little while and then it turns back to crap. I can't keep going through this. I just want to go away. Far away from everybody. I am sick and tired of everything and everybody. I just want to be alone. I want everyone to leave so I can be exactly how a feel. I feel completely alone and helpless. So, I just want people to just stop faking it with me. Stop acting like they care when they don't. And stop pretending that they are interested in me when they aren't. Just leave me alone because you aren't making my situation better you are making it worst.